mei's mindscape

22 nov 2024. i wonder if other people notice the identities or values they've outgrown as soon as they outgrow them – or if, like me, it takes them a few months or years before they're like, "oh, i don't really connect with that thing i took very seriously/hinged my whole personality on anymore. huh. weird." i was thinking about this because lately i've noticed my style changing a little! i used to... Read more?

15 oct 2024. i've had a very unrestful 2 1/2 weeks, but i think it's about to be over before i hit 3, which is GOOD!!! i'll get the complainy parts out of the way first before getting to the nicer bits. the reason for my exhaustion is that my dog has been in heat and has obviously not been having a good time. this is her THIRD cycle since we got her spayed, by the way!! that's right – i am NOT an irresponsible... Read more?

27 sept 2024. i keep being like "it's not been that long since my last diary entry" and then before i know it, a month and a half goes by. OKAY!!! i would like to write more frequently, since this is a diary after all. the past few weeks have been very stressful for me! my break from my program finally ended and i got back into preparing for the practicum part of it, which is the last leg of the... Read more?

15 aug 2024. this week i got back from a short trip to melbourne! it was my first solo trip that wasn't for school purposes, and something i'd wanted to do for a while. i wasn't looking at melbourne specifically, but i saw that my favorite comedian (gianmarco soresi) was doing an australia tour and thought that was as good a reason as any to head over, so i designed my trip around that event. even though the... Read more?

18 jul 2024. it was my birthday recently! this was my first birthday in a long while that wasn't preceded by a week of me being the most insane version of myself, which i'm grateful for... i'm pretty sure my more stable moods have a lot to do with the recent sleep/fitness changes i've made, alongside just getting a little older! my family greeted me in the morning with flowers, and worm was so so excited about... Read more?

30 jun 2024. and just like that, the first half of the year is over!!! crazy how that happens. this is kind of a rambly post about some life/site/media updates, so it's very long, sorry. here is where i talk about my life... not much has changed with me over the past month. i finished the comic i said i was working on, which i'm quite happy with! there's 24 hours left on the campaign as of typing this and i... Read more?

24 may 2024. i've been thinking a little bit about various aspects of my site, and decided it would be good to write these thoughts down rather than let them float abstractly in my head, so here we go! (i guess this counts as a very belated anniversary post? kind of a lame way to celebrate!!!) design now that i'm a little over a year into running this website, i've found myself steering away from design... Read more?

30 mar 2024. we're almost done with Q1 of this year. crazy...! it's been a while since i wrote a diary entry into this thing so i thought i'd do one before the month ended. just make the new pages! i've been working on some pages that have been on my to-do list since i started the site!!! i speak about this all the time but it's so intimidating to try and tackle some of them, especially the shrines. i like my... Read more?