mei's mindscape

5 feb 2025. hello, 2025! we're over a month into the new year and it's been going... actually really well for me, LOL. i know i shouldn't feel weird about that, but i'm so used to being tense and panicked about life even when things are nice, and over the past month i have Not Been. yay for mood-regulating medication? anyway, part of what made january so fun was that my sister and i took a short girls' trip... Read more?

25 dec 2024. happy holidays! christmas day is an easy day for me, since my family tends to do our celebration on christmas eve. we're out of town for christmas this year and held the gift exchange in my and my sister's hotel room before engaging in karaoke using my portable karaoke machine + youtube. our room is in the corner of the top floor of this small hotel, so we didn't get any noise complaints! (we also... Read more?

22 nov 2024. i wonder if other people notice the identities or values they've outgrown as soon as they outgrow them – or if, like me, it takes them a few months or years before they're like, "oh, i don't really connect with that thing i took very seriously/hinged my whole personality on anymore. huh. weird." i was thinking about this because lately i've noticed my style changing a little! i used to... Read more?

15 oct 2024. i've had a very unrestful 2 1/2 weeks, but i think it's about to be over before i hit 3, which is GOOD!!! i'll get the complainy parts out of the way first before getting to the nicer bits. the reason for my exhaustion is that my dog has been in heat and has obviously not been having a good time. this is her THIRD cycle since we got her spayed, by the way!! that's right – i am NOT an irresponsible... Read more?

27 sept 2024. i keep being like "it's not been that long since my last diary entry" and then before i know it, a month and a half goes by. OKAY!!! i would like to write more frequently, since this is a diary after all. the past few weeks have been very stressful for me! my break from my program finally ended and i got back into preparing for the practicum part of it, which is the last leg of the... Read more?

15 aug 2024. this week i got back from a short trip to melbourne! it was my first solo trip that wasn't for school purposes, and something i'd wanted to do for a while. i wasn't looking at melbourne specifically, but i saw that my favorite comedian (gianmarco soresi) was doing an australia tour and thought that was as good a reason as any to head over, so i designed my trip around that event. even though the... Read more?

18 jul 2024. it was my birthday recently! this was my first birthday in a long while that wasn't preceded by a week of me being the most insane version of myself, which i'm grateful for... i'm pretty sure my more stable moods have a lot to do with the recent sleep/fitness changes i've made, alongside just getting a little older! my family greeted me in the morning with flowers, and worm was so so excited about... Read more?

30 jun 2024. and just like that, the first half of the year is over!!! crazy how that happens. this is kind of a rambly post about some life/site/media updates, so it's very long, sorry. here is where i talk about my life... not much has changed with me over the past month. i finished the comic i said i was working on, which i'm quite happy with! there's 24 hours left on the campaign as of typing this and i... Read more?