what am i up to now?

current era

i'm in my adjusting to adulthood era!

i think these days i'm realizing that i should make peace with the parts of adulthood i have a hard time accepting + learn to make decisions that will enhance my life as an adult even if it means changing how i live. i'm trying to develop better habits to take care of my body, push myself to do things outside my comfort zone, reach out to friends, etc.

who am i?

these days, i am back in (online) school.

i've got about five more months of this program before i get my license and can apply to jobs with it. i'm excited for that next life stage, but nervous for how consuming the job is going to be. i've been enjoying how deep into my hobbies & interests i've been able to dive over the past few years, and am reluctant to let that go... but it feels like it's a necessary strain to becoming the kind of person i want to be.

despite knowing this, i'm milking my hobby time, and have been taking my program as lightly as i can. most of my time not spent doing homework or in class is spent watching TV, drawing, writing, or working on my site – sort of as a last hurrah before i'm forced to exchange that time for Real Person Things.

where am i?

physically, i'm still living at home.

nothing new! it's still good, but i'm seeing more of a need to expand my social circle beyond my family, who i depend on for regular interaction because they have the most flexible schedules of everyone i know (friends all work 9-5s). i should try to explore my city on my own... (← girl who will not do that)

online, i'm inactive in most public social media spaces.

after saying goodbye on my public-facing twitter, i now spend most of my time on my priv twitter for my irls, here, and aethy. i tend to dip when my accounts get too many followers for my liking... having (the illusion of) control over my audience is really important to me. in recent months i've also gotten a better handle of how i want to interact online.

what am i doing?

art

• just finished up a recent batch of commissions. not sure if i want to open them again soon, especially because i have a busy few months ahead!
• i've got character designs down for my ace girl comic and should send in my script + thumbs very soon...
• been drawing a lot of selfshippy stuff with the turtles wehe.
• i've been using procreate a lot more since i got my ipad last july, just because it's so convenient for sketching. but clip studio on my laptop is still my go-to for polished stuff!

site

• i'm working on my mutant mayhem shrine, and i'd like to make shrines for other things soon too!
• i want to work on having a page for my OCs now that i'm thinking about them more.
• i feel less weird about my online presence now, so i'd like to revive my old sketchbook page, which lots of people gave me nice comments on. i liked it too and want to bring it back!

personal

• i'm going on walks more often and trying to stretch more (+ cut back on boba).
• worm is old and chill enough to spend hours napping in my room, which has been nice.
• i've been really addicted to starbattle puzzles.
• my friends and i are playing a game called oops, all draculas - we've not actually had our first session, but designing the characters and worming together has been really fun!

watching:

• rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles
• brooklyn nine-nine
• hazbin hotel...

listening to:

• on the open road - a goofy movie
• loser, baby - keith david & blake roman
• you're just a boy (and i'm kinda the man) - maisie peters
• 34+35 (remix) - ariana grande ft. doja cat, megan thee stallion

playing:

• pokemon scarlet/violet dlc (indigo disk)
• starbattle

reading:

• the majesties by tiffany tsao
• the deep end of the sea by heather lyons
• devil's candy by rem & bikkuri

obsessing over:

• STILL THE TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES. i started watching rise in late november/early december after a few months of obsessing over mume, and after being inundated with turtles media, i'm very close to starting 2012 and 1987 as well.
• mume faves: donnie, followed by raph
• rise faves: leo, often in combat with donnie (and every now and then mikey throws a wrench in both their efforts to stay in my "fave" spot)
• symphony, a donnie/reader longfic by desceros. i don't usually read fics that are currently updating, but sam is really incredible at getting updates out and a compelling writer to boot!
• i watched the released hazbin episodes yesterday and was pleased to know that vox is exactly the messy failguy i thought he would be... also i'm pleasantly surprised by the quality of the whole show.

i'd like to not go insane in the coming months.

the coming months are going to be busy... between school and the practicum and exams required by my program, i've got a comic to fulfill before the end of Q2. not to mention i'm going to be traveling next month!

i have some trouble managing my time, but i'm hoping to find a system that works for me and allows me to balance my schoolwork, comic work, hobbies, and self-regulatory activities (socializing, moving, etc) so i don't spiral. i just want to survive until june, THEN i'll figure out where to go from there.

want to watch: tmnt 2012, dungeon meshi, trolls?
want to play: nothing in particular at the moment!
want to read: cold new climate by isobel wohl